PURPOSE

IS THEIR A PURPOSE TO LIFE?

WHAT IS MY PURPOSE, DO YOU HAVE ONE? ONCE YOU COMPLETE YOUR PURPOSE ARE YOU DONE?

WAS I BORN WITH THIS ABILITY, WILL IT REALLY COME TRUE. IS MY PURPOSE TO CHANGE THAT GUY OR IS IT TO CHANGE YOU?

IS PURPOSE INGRAINED, LIKE IT IS ALREADY UP THERE? OR IS IT UNCHANGED, IF YOUR PARENTS CAN BARE.

DID THEY COMPLETE WHAT THEY WERE SET OUT TO DO? OR DID THEY RETREAT AND THEY LEFT IT ALL UP TO YOU?

CAN YOU FEEL IT? WHEN DO YOU KNOW? WHEN YOUR PURPOSE HAS COME FORTH AND IT IS TIME FOR YOUR SHOW.

OR IS PURPOSE LIKE JEWERLY? ONE OF THOSE THINGS, THAT A GUY WEARS IN LIFE? LOOK AT ALL MY RINGS!

I DID THIS AND I DID THAT. ARE YOU IMPRESSED, DOES IT MATTER THAT I AM FAT.

I TOOK CARE OF BUSINESS, I RIGHTED THE WRONG. I CHANGED THE WORLD AND I DID IT LIKE A BELLS D..O..N..G.!

DOES PURPOSE COME OR DOES IT GO? WILL YOU KNOW WHEN IT IS YOUR TIME TO GLOW?

PURPOSE COULD BE JUST ANOTHER THING. IS IT YOUR DESTINY OR ARE YOU JUST WEARING ANOTHER RING?

STORM OF CHAOS

I have talked about the random chaos around us in previous pieces. It is everywhere. It controls everything. Every action or moment creates a new connection that will effect the chaos around you. The storm can catch you when your least expecting. Try and hold onto your self control. Negative Chaos is out there. Someone has made a negative action somewhere in the last few seconds. Don't allow yourself to be connected to negativity. Finding the negativity in the chaos is the key. You control your own chaos storm. Your actions are out there too. How strong is your storm? How positive is your storm? Realize the importance of recognizing chaos.

painting by dustin gilstrap

FINDING YOUR POLE

When you are alone there is only one decision possible. It is your decision. You may contemplate the outcome, but the end decision is yours. The perfection of this compels me to make more decisions alone.

When you are with one other there is a 50-50 outcome in the beginning. Whoever is more confident in the decision, usually will get their way. Sometimes there can be a mutual decision made between two compatible minds. Though, it can never be a perfect 50-50. Conflict arises with another random mind in the mix.

When you are with two others there is a 33 percent chance your decision will be the chosen one. Imagine three magnets. Each perfectly aligned in a row. When one magnet is moved, there is a fight for the chance to connect. If the pull either way is great enough, the magnet or magnets will touch and become one. The poles are aligned at the point of contact. "The connection of magnetism with everything is a pull towards the answer." The randomness of three magnets connecting at the same time is only possible with math or perfection. Two magnets will connect at a closer time and a the decision will be made with less chaos involved. Sometimes you are destined or "pulled" towards the right or wrong answer. Try to pull yourself away from a decision before you are pulled in. Never let yourself connect to a decision that you do not feel positive about. Strive to keep a positive pole. Negativity will reach at you. Stay at a distance beyond the line that pulls you in.

Numbers allow so many possible outcomes. In the end one decision is made. Which pole are you attracted to? Do you pull at people in a negative manner? Are you pulled into a negative outcome on occasion? Controlling the mix of your positive and negative pole is the connection I am trying to release. Strength can come in numbers. The best decision will sometimes mold from many. Chaos also comes with numbers. We can to pull people towards the positive outcome or stay a distance away from the magnetic pull. "I will strive to not be another crow on the wire." The negative perspective of a crows on a wire made a great addition to the positive pull of this writing. You control your personal spot in the magnetic realm of the universe.

picture "Crows on a Wire", by dustin gilstrap

THE BREAKFAST EXPERIENCE

I had a chance to spend some time with Abbie and Mom yesterday. It is amazing to see the likeness in them as Abbie grows. It is great to see them together on this trip. They made a random decision to venture up to Colorado Springs. Sometimes you just have to go for it and get some work done. They made a proactive decision to search for a house for Abbie and register for classes early. The early bird always gets the worm.

I began my morning with coffee. I needed to wake up. My mind was groggy at 7:30 on a Saturday morning. The drive to a local breakfast joint was quite an experience in itself. A medium aged woman was walking in the middle of Hampton Ave. This woman was also carrying a pillow. This scene made me realize the importance of a healthy brain.

After a small journey in the wrong direction, Abbie and Mom arrived for breakfast. The comfort of the table, and the quality service allowed for a great breakfast experience.
I cherish the moments with Mom and Abbie.

TROUBLED MOMENTS

On occasion there will be trouble. Trouble seems to cause varied amounts of pain. Sometimes it comes without warning. Random moments with trouble can latch on to you for a varied period of time. You can be effected by trouble. Try not to let it control you. Stay calm and collected in a time of trouble. Make positive decisions when dealing with trouble. You positive actions are all you control, when trouble arrives.

PAINTERS CORNER

I have introduced a new staple in my life. It is called, "Painters Corner". I try and utilize quality time on the weekend. I paint on Sunday. It is a way to get away, and let my fingers control the contemplation on a canvas. I start without an idea in mind. I just start painting, and see what happens. It is amazing how painting can sooth the nerves on a day before a new workweek.

painting by dustin gilstrap

Something to Think About

If at first you don't succeed, don't skydive.

Rice is great when your hungry and you want 2,000 of something.

Do Chinese kids get English tatoos?

Alcoholism is the only disease you get yelled at for having.

Which way does a compass point in space?

When it comes to race, people always say, I dont care weather thier black, white, purple or green. Now common, purple and green, you got to draw the line somewhere. To hell with the purple people.

Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyways.

I'm sick of following my dreams. I will just ask where their going and hook up with them later.

When French people swear, do they say pardon my English?

If the number 13 is unlucky, then so should the letter B. It is just a squished togeather 13. I feel sorry for BOB.

Why do they put an out of order sign at an escalator? Why dosen't it just say stairs?

An easy way to whiten you teeth is to get a tan.

It takes 46 muscles to frown, but only 4 to flip that guy off.

FINDING YOUR COMFORT

There is uncontrollable chaos surrounding you.

Nouns are pulling at you.

People, constantly are there. Interaction cause a great amount of stress.
Things, are reacting and moving with every moment you create.
Places, are where you are from, and what is to behold.

The constant battle with the chaos will never end. You choose to be self involved with the whirling wind around you. You cannot let yourself get caught in the tornado.

Spend time counteracting the chaos. Make a conscious attempt to place yourself in a comfortable situation. Comfort can calm the state of mind. When you are in a uncomfortable situation, what is your initial reaction? Most people seem to want to run away, or get angry/frustrated. This is such a negative reaction. Why not try to comfort yourself at a specific time in the day. This comfort can bring peace to uncomfortable situations.

Finding your comfort zone is easy. It can be a chair placed in a peaceful spot in your backyard, or on a sandy beach in Tahiti. The possible locations are endless. Your location should be based on an ANTI-chaos theory. Try and choose a positive time. A time in the morning, or whenever. Just choose a similar time every day. Try and pull yourself away from "things". Emptiness is the key. Less is better. Your mind can concentrate at a higher level.

Once you find it, you can start the progression to a calmer, more confident you. When you are there, all you need to do is relax. Sit in a comfortable position, and just let it all go. Realize that you are away. There is nothing to push at you. It is only you. Consciously try and make yourself settle down. Keep yourself in a positive state. Think about anything as long as you feel comfort in your thoughts. Sometimes you have bad days. If you cannot think in positive manner, then try and concentrate on your breathing. The volume knob of the world around you will slowly begin to creep down to a comfortable level. As the volume goes down, your self control will increase. You will began to move away from the stresses of the day.

You will begin to see the change in your uncomfortable reactions. The tornado of chaos will slow at whatever rate you allow. Let it go..




picture of "my comfort location" by dustin gilstrap

DUSTIN, ON DUSTIN

I am constantly trying to understand "Dustin". Who is Dustin? After 26 years of life, I still cannot explain. He can finally see a light, but is not venturing to the end of the tunnel. He holds on to the pondering of what lies ahead. Maybe he does not think there is a end to this tunnel of thoughts. The light may not be leading him in the right direction. Is the tunnel holding the answers to what lies ahead in the outside world. He does not want the contemplation to end. The journey continues....

picture by dustin gilstrap

THE BURN PAINTING

I feel this drive to light the world around me. I burn for the need to ignite. The heat I create can change the vast forest ahead of me. When a fire is created, life ignites. The soil content after a forest fire is extremely fertile. Life is waiting to explode.
I want to burn.

painting by: dustin gilstrap

laughter

Laughter clears the head and allows us to pause in the moment, take a breath and enjoy that moment to the fullest.

Hitting The Fan

What would you do when the shit hits the fan? what would you do when you just cant understand? People think that being a hero is is their path, but what really happens when you do the math? Are you going to fight, are you giong to win? What will you do when you know time is running thin? What if you hear time flying by, time leaving your world, and you see theirs side by side? How would you react if the situation was true, would it be the best thing for me or the best thing for you? I would jump in front of the bullet I say, I would take it so you dont have to pay. I would be the hero and take it this once, but in crunch time would you end up a dunce? We can all dream and thats a fact. But in the end we are remembered when the time is compact.

Will you live out the dream... or will you go unseen?

World Values

We live in our own little world only to look up once in a while and notice there is more out there than ourselves. This blog has awakened my desire to share or connect with others whom are important to me. What a great opportunity we have to learn about each other and maneuver through blog country (new to me).
For Memorial Day our family met in Denver for a weekend of fun. We went to a Rockies Game against the New York Mets. They lost Big Time, but it was fun to be part of the crowd. It saddened me to think of the value we put into sports in our country and the amount of money we throw at it. As I participated in this extravagant event knowing the amount of money we spent, I realized we could solve world issues with all that money. Just the money given to the players alone would solve a portion of our world hunger. I too am a big fan of different sports, so I suppose I too am part of the problem. Could we as a country change our focus and make a difference in our world?

PING PONG

Table Tennis is the most competitive game in the house. Pat, Mike, and I are caught up in the progression. We seem to get better and better by every game. Hand/Eye coordination plays a major role in the game. I have noticed a difference in my coordination outside of the ping pong room. I was playing better Frisbee that I have ever experienced.

I was contemplating the connections. If we become more efficient at a skill, it may connect with another Mind/Body reaction. Connecting the connections will lead to the, "peak" of the human race.

BREAKING AWAY

I have always been surrounded by what does not matter. We can comprehend what we want to comprehend. Meaningless thoughts are all around you. There is a clear blue sky peaking through the distance. Conformity is pulling at us at a constant rate. Your mind is at full capacity without distractions. Push away from the chaos smothered in the world around you.

Acrylic painting by Dustin Gilstrap

THE TEACHING'S OF TYLER GILSTRAP

What can we all learn from Tyler Gilstrap?

Have you ever made a move that changes everything about who you are, and what is to come. Tyler did. He came from Dolores to Greeley to start his college career at U.N.C. He excelled in school. I think his intelligence is at a higher level than most. He seems to have a great understanding of how to succeed. Tyler stayed in Greeley for a few years. I am sure it just dragged on. One day he must have had a realization about his current state. He decided to join the Air Force in a very short period of time. He made a move that most would not. I envy his life change. There is a greatness about his mind state at the time of the change. He went for it. Sometimes you have to go for it. The teachings of Tyler from a subconscious level, is an endless tune in itself.

OLD MAN STRENGTH

My friends constantly express my underlying strength. The deceiving point of my brute strength is coined as "old man strength". What does this mean? The term is derived as slang in the 21st century. Our fathers grew up in the world of slowly expanding technology. There was not a World Wide Web, or other technology choices. Children in this day and age grow up not allowing their muscles to progress at the rate needed for strength later in life. We coin the phrase "old man strength" because it is a fact of life. Our generation before us grew up outside, and was involved in muscle progression athletics and outdoor activities. The fun was created, not provided. They are stronger and more immune because of presence of Polio, and Scurvy in the 50s. Our fathers have chisled the muscles in their body throughout their lives. The human muscle has a endless progression that stays with us throughout life. I am lucky to have parents that instilled athletics, and outdoor fun. I grew up in Dolores. I played sports through high school, and enjoyed outdoor athletic activities. I have extremely strong forearm muscles. The bulk is not there, but the underlying strength can be deceiving. Through this contemplation, I have learned that there is more that just brute strength inside of us. I want to progress to a strength that is overall. Mind and body. Old man strength throughout.